My story

Back when I was fourteen, I was very sick. I would have a nose bleed every morning, just by leaning over the sink to wash my face. I would also black　out for a second when I took a bath.
One day my mother took me to the hospital.
After the examination, the doctor seemed to be debating whether to say something or not.
At last, he asked to my mother,
"Was anyone in your family exposed to the atom-bomb?"
She froze for a moment and said,
"Yes, her grandfather was..."
I was surprised because I knew my father had been exposed too. So I said,
"Mom, wasn't dad there too?"
Mother got in a panic and ordered me to wait for her outside the examination room.
I don't know what they talked about after I left the room.
But at a dinner time that day,
My father asked all four of us children this question.
"What would be the most impious thing you could do?"
He usually asked us questions about things that concerned him before a dinner.

Nobody answered, so I said,
"To die before our parents die."
Father looked lost for words, and then, after a long moment he said,
"Yes. Never die before we do."
Then, he said to me, " The doctor said that you need a full and detailed physical examination. Do you want to take it?"
I was frightened because I was just a teenage girl, and it was frightening to think of somebody touching me. So I refused to take it.
"No! I don't need one!"
Father looked concerned for a moment, and then he said.
"OK. This conversation ends now."
Maybe the doctor thought I might have leukemia.
At that time, I didn't realize that I was the the child of a Hibakusha, someone who had been exposed to the atomic bomb.
Maybe my illness was just a transient symptom of growing up.
But my father was terrified of losing me because he had been under the cloud of a nuclear bomb.
He never spoke of it again, but now I understand how worried he must have been about me and his other children.

８月末に富士山に登って来ました。

去年は嵐で頂上まで行けなかったので念願の登頂成功です。

頂上で見る朝日は最高でした。